Only if it were so simple...

Only if it were so simple, I wouldnt be spending time at KFC with you with snackers in my hand..

Only if it were so simple, I wouldnt be commenting on your new geeky look and yet admiring them..

Only if it were so simple, I wouldnt be talking for the sake of it about you treating me but feeling like a princess from within thinking about every time you did so..

Only if it were so simple, I should have listened to Gerard Butler and things would have been simpler! :-|

The movie- The Ugly Truth is awesome! too much fun and relevance too! :)

You live only once!! :)

So after much procrastination.. here I am!
THE YEAR 2009 was indeed the most exciting, adventurous and anticipated year.. may be not most but almost for sure..

January began on an awesome note with first the partaaayy and then the Annual Day! :)
The Most Outstanding student of the College followed with many more medals and then LOP! :) that day itself was an emotional one and so was the month.. the month that passed in planning the P-ACE event and then the juniors executing it entirely..
The month when the TY books were finally bought! :P and partially opened..

February began with my official last event at Podar and I knew the gruelsome study schedule would follow.. but it passed off in a haze with TAX projects and other geeky stuff!

March had THE exams of my life.. It wouldnt matter whether I got a 1st class or 2nd class in FY, SY but TY mattered a lot.. I guess I studied like never before and thanks to my beloved Nalayak who put his heart and soul in padhaoing me, I managed to get some confidence in accounts..
BUT, I will never forget 23rd March, when after the exams, the first time in my life I felt I would fail for sure. Though later I did realize that there were those who had done worse than me but on a serious note, I was scared for A/C - I..

April began with the examinations ending and my most horrible trip to Pune.. I cannot believe that one trip ruined me and A forever.. some things happen for good! and D saved my day! :)
But the most interesting part of my life was coming.. I went for the HT test and interview and got selected.. :D :D The most awesome and amazing months of the year followed after that.. HT Internship changed me for the better and what a life it was..

May was spent in internship and then came Leh Ladakh! :)
the trip left me breathless (quite literally at times..lol) and spell bound.
That place is so serene and untouched! I fall short of words..
May also seen the lovely entrance examinations!

June followed with the most awaited news of the year! The graduation result..
First I couldnt believe I had a first class (ok melodrama followed..I did anticipate it but expected nothing) and then the score! :)
I graduated with a more than 70 percentage and whoa! it was awesome :)RATHER bolti-bandh ho gaya tha un sabka who loved to say that the GS year would ruin my career! :P
June also seen my entrance exam at SCM! :)
and my lovely yet horrid interview at IIMC!
I got through both but SCM was the chosen one! :)
It was also a month of decisions where hell broke loose, well fought and then victory.. and then the sweet smell of freedom.. :) I was free and CAreless! :P

July- LIFE in HELL started as SCM became the apple of my eye and the centre around which my life revolved!

August also passed by in a blur..SCM continued!

September saw my 21st birthday alongwith some really random mood swings and unexpected birthday party!
The teachers' day celebration helped us bond as a class!

October had exams and like loads of them!and then 2 weeks of vacations! I do remember incidents but wouldnt want to blog about them in particular..

November began on a good note with the trip to Uttarakhand and then college yet again! :)

December is here.. A month of weddings, happiness, goodbyes, first year to RAPPORT as an alumnus and then the 10 day break! and a month of contemplation..
Enjoyed the most on Christmas and back to the friends tag with some others! :)

What a year it has been! I graduated, left CA, I joined SCM, liked,disliked, made new friends, lost some close ones, cried and laughed at the same time, realized love of life, realized the passion of life, grew up in some way, became a girl in some way (dont laugh at this), loved, hated, disgusted, cold, hot, weddings, rebel, following your dreams,contemplation, value of true friends, done crazy things, 29th October, revelations- some yet untold but most importantly-HAPPINESS!
A lot more is in store..
A lot more to be achieved and loved and to rave about, and someone to love too! :P
I am awaiting 2010 with a sparkle in my eyes and a hope in the heart!
Are you? :)

"Sometimes your life boils down to one insane move" ~ Neytiri in Avatar!
awesome dialogue and reasonably awesome movie with mind blowing graphics, visuals, animation and action with a not-so-cool story line and an obvious plot!

but anyway! Cheers to T and S for giving me one of the really awesome nights in recent days.. and to Firangi Pani..
I dint realize it but I guess it is now ingrained in me to analyse and look at movies with that third eye kinda way!! GOSH! Thankfully T also realized some similar nuances and saved my day!
Love you two!! :D felt 18 again thanks to T!!

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Went to see Porcupine Tree live in concert! and well in harem pants and a kurta! BEAT THAT!! ok nothing unusual but totally unplanned and bumped into really old friends and it was such an amazing feeling!!
B and I went to see Ptree coz if we end up liking the band after 10 years, it shouldnt be like we missed a concert in our own city and the first in the country! our weird random logics but I so love B!

But some things never change and year after year MI keeps bringing back lovely randomness back in my life :D
Cheers to some random stuff and to the randomness that has prevailed over consecutive MIs !!

Yeh bhi hai Bambai mere yaar...

As a part of my final project in Film, we have to make a documentary from scratch!
Right from the topic, research, funding, contacts.. every single aspect of a Documentary is to be done by the group!
Our topic is Homosexuality in urban Mumbai!
As vague and random as it may sound, this topic has left me asking many many questions about 'sexuality' on the whole and about the existence of the 'them' in the society! At times, it does get difficult because we cannot understand the psyche of a homosexual since not one of us is one. (If anyone reading this is one, I would be highly obliged if you could put it in words)
So for research and for characters, we are working with an organization and meeting gay men on an everyday basis and trust me, it is one helluva of a learning experience! Life is not as easy as it is for us! anyway I am in Week 13 of our research and we start shooting this week! so wish me luck! I will keep posting experiences on a regular basis :)
But, coming to the point.. today was a memorable experience!
For meeting the boyfriend of one of our characters', we had to visit his office which was at Grant Road (East). Falkland road to be precise!
It was my first experience to be visiting the 'red light' area of Mumbai and clearly a memorable one!
We were supposed to go to Kamathipura since we assumed it was there but it was actually at Pill house (yes yes, what an apt name for a road) so we reached the place at 6.00pm. It was the build up before the dhande ka time started. So initially N and me were supposed to be going but were joined by AP and AC..
We got off from the cab and stood there with the world glaring at us as if we had landed from another planet. I had worn a kurta and N had covered up using a stole.. We met the person in five minutes and I have never seen so many eyes stare at me with a lecherous glance in one go(except Chandni Chowk in Delhi and the Pappu Saien dargah in Lahore) Pure visual rape was happening!
Finally, we met R and we reached at one of the lanes in Falkland. While climbing up those dingy stairs, I realized that this Mumbai does exist too. I had only seen Falkland road in photos and was asked by my profs to see that place to see the 'real' South Mumbai and here I was. On our way, we encountered a fight between one of the women and a bike guy. It wasn't a good sight.
It was pitch dark in the stair way and we reached the office on a second floor.
From the second floor, we could see the women lined up in the red-est of red lipstick, skimpy breast hugging blouses, weird jeans and glittering tshirts/tops.
While talking to R, he told us that many of these women grab men and make them have sex forcibly. We found it weird unless we witnessed one incident from up. This woman in a blue gangi started talking to a man who was passing by. He must have agreed after the conversation or I dunno what happened, she grabbed his hand and took him towards a pimp. The pimp was such a typical Maushi and then after her approval they went inside the alley which had curtains. I had to go back to my interview with R but after 20 minutes when I turned back to see, the woman was out and literally grabbing other men who were passing by on the road. I still don't know if I should believe R but the scene makes me want to believe what R said. After the interview, we left the place and were waiting for a cab. I managed to peep into one of these curtain places, and it was a shocking sight. There were many more curtains inside and just one cot and the end of the cot coming out. They were suppose to be separate rooms where one could go and fuck a girl. Then R told us that a theatre in that area played movies for Rs. 20 and you could enter inside, screw a girl either for free or for a cost of Rs. 30 or Rs. 50. I was surely scandalized. Rs. 20 for sex! I mean really Is this the Mumbai I know too? maybe not.
The girls were of different age groups ranging from aunties to young chinki girls. The sight was clearly a simple competition of who can sell her body better. Some were clad in saris, some in jeans and one stood out- a tshirt and a skirt just to cover her bare essentials! well, people in fancy cars also stopped and watched the show. A man did come and ask R if we needed any help. We got a cab and R heaved a sigh of relief.
As the lights passed by in a blur, I wondered what life these girls must be leading? Everyday wake up and do make up in evening. Get ready and the wait begins! While we crib about train journeys tiring us, how would it feel to take some 4 men on an average hump you and leave you?
Dint they dream of making it big in Mumbai? Is this what the city of dreams have to offer? I guess majority of them wouldnt even bother to think about what I am contemplating on. But how many of them live and die in that brothel? How many actually muster up the courage to break free and live a 'decent' life?
Isn't this the unexplored Mumbai?
As the cab stood at the signal, the same Sun set above our heads..
One of us basked in its halo while (maybe)she craved for finding light in the darkness..

Yeh bhi Mumbai dekh li! I clearly missed my camera! But somehow I felt that I had captured in the lens of my eyes and I did not want to intrude their space!

Yeh Bambai hai mere yaar..

..bas ishq mohabbat pyaar (yahan bhi hota hai yaar)

I love the anonymity that this city offers and the safety too! Its my first love.
Every time I am tired and stressed (which these days is very often) I just go and sit by Marine Drive or by the beach.. and it kills all my stress.. Its the soothing effect that it does to your brain! I love Mumbai way too much to explain to anyone how we survive in this hectic, on the pace, 24/7 lifestyle!

In the last two days, I have been having serious arguments with people whether Mumbai is better or Delhi
but then I realized that very few Mumbaikars will be able to adjust in Delhi and very few Delhietes love Mumbai the way I do.. so its futile to argue/discuss it with any Delhiete!

btw Mumbai is much more and way beyond political parties and RT!
Write that down!

and yes we do care about those who matter.. We (read: Mumbaikars) aren't the nagging types who will keep questioning your existence as our neighbour or generally in the city. We love to be ourselves and be happy in our space and not intrude or poke our nose into the lives of others. We love to grab a bite at Theo's and have Merwan cakes too!We love to chill at Toto's and at the same time at Gokul. We love the Shamiana sandwich with fancy sauces but also enjoy our vada pav!We can wear pyjamas to college and just add on a pullover over our ganjis and still manage to make a style statement and we like our hair messed and can go to college without make up or kajal! so on and so forth.. puns intended though subtle!
and yes, as I read somewhere in a blog, we DO NOT mind wearing shorts in winter.. even if the temperature drops to 20 degrees, we do feel cold and THAT is winter to us! Even if we do not understand winter fashion and winter wear, even if we do not understand filthy babu log politics, even if our infrastructure is in shambles and crumbles, we still pump in the maximum amount of money in the economy..
and yes! in spite of various other advantages, we still have our feet on the ground!
Love you Mumbai! :)

No no.. I am NOT a man trapped in a woman's body as Anu-R had once told me!
I got into a major Cat fight in the train today.. This is the third incident in the month of December that I have fought/slapped/hit/abused someone.. and trust me I do not feel good about it..
Its just that I genuinely couldnt have avoided any.. I dont know why do I feel bad about it but I do.. crazy pangs of happiness are always followed with feeling bad and stupid!
According to Mom, I have developed violent streaks and so this behaviour.. According to me, I am just attracting violent vibes towards me and after today's episode/drama I have decided to control those so-called vibes that I sent to the universe(No, I am NOT drunk or high whilst I say this) so wish me luck! Its a happy month after all.
A lovely year is coming to an end, I have weddings to attend.
Shopping for lovely new dress for a wedding tops my weekly priority list. Suggestions are welcome!!

Bara Bara Vatay!!

AATA KASA VATAY??
Khup Khup Bara Bara Vatay! :D

I am officially de-throned from the post of the G.Sec of Podar! :) since YS (read: Sardya)is officially elected as the GS of the bestest college in the whole world! (with its flaws :P)

Chotu won the Tata Scholarship!!

I cannot be happier on the same day!
I feel like a proud and happpppppppppppppyyyyyyy Mother! dunno why but I feel really happy for them!
The term GS should be renamed GYash for Podar! :P.. four consecutive terms of GYash's for GS :P..
But finally Podar is in safe hands for the year!

Some part of me also felt kinda void since this was the last direct connection with Podar that I had! well one moves on, so have I! :) but I cant wait for RAPPORT! Probably that part of me will feel filled up after seeing a new team put up a RAPPORT! After all when you give something your sweat and blood, you want it to last a little longer.. The human greed sets in but then you get more options to dream about, to feel greedy about and you move on! :) so have I! I love today! I hope they have the 'dhol' soon! aah! the video of 'my' year's dhol actually brought back the most awesome party that I ever ever had and never ever have I felt so special! :D

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I have become a fan of Satyajit Ray! Three movies i.e. Pather Panchali, Aparajito and Apar Sansar have managed to bowl me out! awesomeness and detailing in every frame! It is way beyond praise! I hope to see many more of his works!
P.S.: If any of you'll own a Ray movie, please do lend it to me! :)

December Blues!

Love seems to be in the air!!
Some falling in it, some falling out of it while some of them continue to drag me into it! :P and yah! Its December.. the supposed month of love and celebration :)

Whoa! what nostalgia.. Last year I was preparing for RAPPORT at this time..
Here I am killing it in projects! Next week is P's wedding.. I cant believe it at all.. The same awesomely sarcastic and bindaas chic is gonne be married next sunday! Suddenly I feel all old..Five of us have literally survived Podar together! and of all of us, she is the first one to get married! I havent even shopped for anything as yet and I regret the fact that I will be missing the Sangeet thanks to the AV Submission! such is life! Sh

B got placed in an awesome job! :) and Im happy for Fizz!! :P

It really feels so nostalgic.. Every December for the last 5 years, we used to start R.A.P.P.O.R.T preparations and this year I dont even have time to visit all the days.. I will be doing guest appearance on the last two days but yet. I am hoping some of my batchies will also join in..

Aah! An entire year has passed by..the highs, the lows, the trenches and the peaks!
If anything more can be asked for, its only in the next year! The anticipation, the excitement, the fear, the jitters :) Though I havent yet finalized any plans for the new year's eve, I really hope I celebrate it like last year!! :) Im missing Joban right now and the entire gang! more to follow...with 2009 highs and bloopers!